The last word isn’t worth it. When you realize…

It sucks, but it’s true. Just had a fight Lost my shit yesterday. It gets extremely exhausting trying to be strong when you aren’t. Wasn’t feeling it anymore. It has been difficult trying teach someone a love language they aren’t used to. When they don’t think they are worthy of love and someone being good to them…it is almost like you have to break their brain and retrain it. FRUSTRATING. They may lash out, pull away, act up…like a caged animal being set free after years of mistreatment.

Still no excuse for me to have snapped the way I did. I do not regret getting my point across, disappointed in myself for the way I got it across.

**Full disclosure** I am sensational at destruction. I was told once a long time ago by a respected family friend that I am fair and level headed but a force of nature. If I have something to say the world will know if I so choose, and I will not be defied. An extremely sharp double edged sword. Don’t get me wrong it has served me well on different occasion in different ways, but it’s my personal kind of black magic so to speak- takes a little bit of the soul overtime it rears.

That being said I stay away from it at all costs. I regulate myself and have coached my self into rationality and logical thinking. So oddly I am proud of feeling guilty for gassing a blowout. My feelings were hurt and I was fit to be tied from the last few weeks of making everything out of nothing ya know? So a pointed inquiry about my use of a metal whisk on a metal pan, despite the beautiful dinner prepared pictured threw me into the fire. (Please note I DID NOT use the whisk on the pan, I’m not a bumbling moron).

All that to say, I did not vie to have the last word. You heard it here first. Me, ole laser precision soul crusher didn’t go for the KO. Usually it isn’t worth it but it feels good, however unnecessary it is. But I have found someone who doesn’t deserve it and that I have no wish to take out like that.

Now don’t pat me on the back I didn’t reconcile, my after burners are still in full force from it. I am having to wrestle with this feeling of hurting like I was the one that got shot versus the one pulling the trigger. This is new, and confusing. But I need to apologize for blind siding them.

Hair Tips from a 4b- low porosity

Recently decided to give up braids for wearing my hair in it’s natural state. My natural state being 26 years of nothing other than haircuts. No chemical treatments, color, etc. I have learned a few things recently:

  1. Hair porosity is almost more important than that all consuming questions of “what is my curl pattern?” Porosity helps guide you to which products and applications of that product will work best for your hair type. Moisture is no good if it is sitting on top vs being absorbed by your lovely strands  (you can check out more on that here www.naturallycurly.com/texture-typing/hairporosity)

2) NOT EVERYTHING WORKS FOR EVERYONE

3) NOT EVERYTHING WORKS FOR EVERYONE- yes two times because this seems to be a common misconception. Those “hair divas” you watch…let’s be serious..you’re not seeing what all they do behind the scenes to get those looks. Plus many are sponsored so they have the ability sit around all day and do their hair and use free product. Not to say that all of them fall into this category but camera quality should be a tip off.

4) More expensive is not “more better” so to speak. For example I recently used CHI 44 Iron Guard, really disappointed. It made my hair stiff, sticky and killed my shine. After consulting a hair stylist friend and attempting application in various ways..it’s just not for me. In light of that DO NOT EVER THINK that a product not working for your hair is your fault. Chemistry doesn’t always jive and that’s ok.

5) Don’t be afraid to get in there and experiment. Do what you want. Does that wild style look good with your face? DO IT! If you like straight as a pin, go for it. Your hair is super unique from root to tip, give it a chance to do it’s thing and then you can learn how to manipulate it and keep it happy.

6) If you are a 4b depending upon your porosity  applying product will be better with a little heat. It will allow your hair to absorb all those yummy nutrients it craves.

7) Coconut oil — I’m sure you’ve heard it all– is a great go to. Always will be. The Vitamin Shoppe sells it for a whopping $5 and tax, best of all it is EVCO (extra virgin coconut oil) and is fair trade!

^^That being said PLEASE DO NOT USE THIS A HEAT PROTECTANT! You’re right it does have a high smoke point BUT you should not hear your hair sizzle or see smoke. That means you’re sautéing your hair! Whatever your price point look into a bottle of heat protectant spray to spare your strands the damage.

8) Not everyone has baby hair ok? Let me be more specific here…if you don’t have baby hairs to slick down you’re still a baddie ok? I don’t have them, I have edges. My baby hairs are actually short, delicate little things that happily float along for the ride. Not even remotely enough nor dark enough to plaster down with eco styler. Don’t torture yourself. Ladies with naturally long baby hairs, shout out! You cute. But hey guess what? Don’t be dick to girls who don’t k? They are just as cute.

9) Brushing your hair and massaging your scalp are great for your hair. These two acts stimulate receptors responsible for growth and encourage them to keep up the work! Aka you now have a scientific excuse to get a scalp massage from your main squeeze!

 

That’s all for right this second, but if you think of something let me know! I love to hear from and talk to other bloggers as well as readers. ❤ Hope

 

 

Nope, definitely not wearing pants homie.

So after the irresponsibly long water break (sorry guys life happened and I slacked off…forgives Dobby, Sire) let’s finish this up bombshell!

Now where were we? Oh yes the remaining questions:  Are tights considered leggings and ultimately considered pants? Why is finding a job so hard? What am I doing wrong? Has the demon lord taken a personal interest in ruining my life?!

TIGHTS ARE NOT, I REPEAT, ARE NOT LEGGINGS! EVER!

Let me set the stage for this, I am VERY liberal about what I consider pants k? But harsh reality is what horrifying adulthood is made of. But seriously c’mon…you know those were see through when you bought them at Target. Alas, they are very cute but not acceptable as pants. This is a good time to also mention that there are leggings that are not making the cut as pants either. How to determine this? Take your hand and insert them in the pants as sexy as you like, if you can see said hand through the fabric..NOT PANTS. If this isn’t enough to convince you slip into those bad boys. Now take em for a spin, squat, bend over, overly analyze your cute butt…if at any point you can see your skin through them NOT PANTS. But this gives the perfect excuse to throw on that ultra cute oversized hoodie and boots, or the dress you can’t justify wearing because it’s Paris Hilton 2007 short.

Moving right along my starshines:

Finding jobs is hard. The end. This generation has gotten the explosive diarrhea end of this shit stick. Look around some austere article outlining this is only a click away. But Weiss however shall we beat this? Become what you most fear; your parents. Yes, I know. Cue the shrill horror soundtrack, but lets face it- it ain’t weird if it works.

I challenge you to look up a few different definitions of the term “millennial”. I’ll wait.

FISTS AND PITCHFORKS DOWN SUGAR PLUM! You don’t fit any of that do you? None of us do. 1983- 1992 (modified age range because I’ve found in personal observation it’s a bit more accurate) are echo boomers. We are exactly what our parents made us with a shot of the strongest form of progressive nature, or the “dreamers disease”. We still believe hard work, consistent results above expectation = success and opportunity. DO NOT LOSE THAT in the age of Vine, IG and stupid people encouraging stupid people to be stupid. No one owes us anything and we know that. So listen very closely to this next part:

  1. Invest in a well fitting business professional outfit. Don’t you dare go into H&M or Body Central. Shun the “juniors” section YOU AREN’T IN HS ANYMORE! This tip right here can be what makes or breaks you during the interview process. You want to beat that trollop wearing the leggings as pants and old douche canoe with the Macklemore haircut!
  2. Swing by an office supply store and pick up a nice portfolio.
  3. Ask an adult you respect to critique your interview look, if they are impressed you’re on the right track. Aesthetic is everything.
  4. Apply for jobs you actually want. I know sometimes you just need something, but it’s much easier to be enthusiastic when you really want something.
  5. Have questions on hand that address things that are important to you in the work place. YOU WILL ASK THESE, PROMISE ME NOW!
  6. When you land the interview, make sure to type up a “stats sheet” on the company. Their mission statement, any major business mergers/acquisitions, names of the Prez/VP/Comptroller etc. This NEVER fails.
  7. Be you. Don’t say what you think they need to hear. Also pepper in your personal values and code of ethics–> adultier adults love this!
  8. Lastly, IT IS OK TO BE SMART, AMBITIOUS AND HUNGRY. It’s not desperate, it says you have sworn yourself into the legion of success and will produce by any means necessary.

HAHAHAHA! On to my favorite topic the all rude, grand master of Petty– the demon lord.

Okay, so you’re laughing rolling your eyes like “this bitch”. But riddle me this have you ever had one of those days (weeks or years) that makes no sense. Like things are going wrong, awkward and just down right irresponsibly? You my dear have run into the demon lord. Now I’ll be the first to say don’t point fingers when things get wonky, but fuck it all if some things aren’t just extraordinarily cosmically unjust. This is when it is perfectly in bounds to just “DAMMIT DEMON LORD”.

 Yep this little apple munching bastard is who I picture.

(art from twitter user @Ryukapplediary, depicted is Ryuk the Japanese Shinigami from the anime “Death Note”.)

But in all honesty, those times, although cliché sounding, are what makes you quite the refined little minx. Problematic situations fine tune your ability to adapt and grow. What I just said in no way makes me feel better about shitty happenings and probably doesn’t make you feel elated either.  However this might:

IF THE JOURNEY OF LIFE DOESN’T SCARE YOU SHITLESS 5EVR YOU ARE NOT DOING IT RIGHT.

IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN SO NERVOUS THAT YOU HAD TO POOP RIGHT AWAY, AGAIN NOT DOING IT RIGHT

LAYING ON THE FLOOR CONTEMPLATING BECOMING A BUM, DRUG DEALER, RAPPER, STRIPPER, OR A CLERGY MEMBER IS TOTALLY ACCEPTABLE

Want to know why? Because you’re saying, doing, and feeling these things as you subconsciously have already started to plan and regroup. You make it every time. You’re the most clutch player on your team. When you’re ready to give up YOU’RE DOING IT RIGHT, because you’re giving this brief blip on the universal screen every bit of hell you can muster. Keep it up Billy Badass, whatever works, keep it up!

 

-Weiss

 

Multi-round interview nightmare..and a little relief.

Every employer has their interview methods. However the increasing number of “rounds” on the pipeline to even the most basic employment is becoming ridiculous. Correct me if I am wrong here, but I thought the submission of a resume and cover letter by potential candidates was in essence the “sorting hat” in itself. Now a second interview is understandable, especially for larger companies or more specialized positions. But to drag out the process due to indecisiveness or an often times “on the fence” employee is in rather poor taste.

But not many things in the process are worse than the “we will be making call backs early next week”, “we will make a decision at the end of the week and will let everyone know one way or the other”…needless to say these spell frustration. Eventually you find out how you did..usually because you don’t receive a call. Did they not like you? Why? Should you call? No you don’t want to seem clingy and nuts…wait what?! Interviewing and job searching shouldn’t incite copious amounts of wine drinking, cursing, and self re-evaluation! These treats are reserved for dating…and being in the midst of gainful employment and not a minute before.

However! There are ways to eliminate some of this nonsense. I’ve found that these questions are acceptable and many times welcomed when in an interview situation, in no particular order:

1) What are the next steps in the hiring process? (given that they have extended you a second interview)

2) Has this been a heavily sought after position?

3) What should I expect for the next interview?

4) Who will I be interviewing with? (take this information and try to learn about these people, usually upper management/CEO/Owners)

Give it a shot. They are humans just like we are. It is well within your rights to know what you are up against and to voice your concerns and sate curiosities (politely of course). I’ll be posting some questions to ask your interviewer that I have had great success with! Until then cadets….

x,

Weiss Words